im a new person since I was posting before I found something in life you cant find online I was trying to find who I was on tumblr and instagram its been almost a year now since I last tried to kill myself and im doing a lot better on that end and to be honest I am actually happy for once and when I think about how happy I am it feel forign to me I just do what I want now I don't determine any aspect of what I do on others I don't pretend to like something or act a certan way because of people ive come into my own in the outdoors I am an avid kayaker now and am out fishing on it every day almost ive had one job since I last posted and im just starting another now I quit a company called sweetwaters donut mill because I worked my ass off for them and never felt apriciated by anyone so I quit because I have more self worth than what they think I just started at a new upper scale Asian restaurant that mixes different Asian quizene im a expoer and I don't cook but im the inbetween from the waiters and cooks