I feel stupid for how I feel. Wants are different from needs in the way that you can survive without something that would want. So therefore you don't ever need someone in your life. a person may feel as if they need someone when they really don't and are able to live another day without them. No matter how much we may think we need someone we really don't we can move on with life and overcome obstacles without that person. No matter how much out hurts or torturous it feels we can survive. I tell myself this every day but I still feel like I need someone. Even though I will never have what I feel I need I still live on. Eventually I hope this longing pain fades I know it will not. I am the worst of the worst people I am hard headed I hold on to feelings for way to long, so long intact that they never truly fade away. They just become apart of the poison that is my soul and consumes my thoughts. I want to go back to a time where I felt nothing just a emotionless shell of a human. I really do not like these things I feel for I know they will never happen.