thinking

these thoughts in my head swirl as my stomach ties in knots over feelings about you i stare at my phone as my heart hangs on the next text my heart screams we should be together but my head knows you will never want to be and i cant tell if its just to protect my already damaged heart or because it is just not meant to be i must know how you feel and i take the absence of that knowledge as you do not feel the same i want to follow my heart but to what avail would it be if another heart break which would just destroy something already broken and the only thing that could repair it is your embrace which is out of my reach i long to express how i feel but for now i shalt not murmur a sound i will just stand idly by and silently admire your perfection from a distance